Back to my (sensitive) senses
So, this last week has been weird, tough and good. The last .. half a year+ has been one hell of a, pardon my french, fucked up ride.But it feels like I've come back to my senses, my very old self. And I wonder how long I've been out of touch.
Anyway, I picked up a clue today.. we went to a mall and bought some stuff, and I bought an FM-tranmitter, the kind you can hook up to your phone and get music on the car radio.
Well, the clue was, I noticed when I sat in my car that I could "lock up" and almost desperately try to figure things out and ignore anything else. So it is kind of a .. have to finish or get it right thing going on. Or have something to focus on. I could literally feel my mind and body revving up and staying there.
On the other hand, when I'm not doing much and "feeling more" I can get anxiety and that fall-asleep-and-you'll-die feeling.
So, that's how it is. But I'm optimistic and feeling that things could get better and more stable in the long run.
Oh, and the FM-transmitter hooked to my phone.. worked in the car, but the volume could be better.
[Permalink] [By morphex] [Living (Atom feed)] [19 Apr 20:30 GMT+1]